You accept the love you think you deserve.
And you do not deserve that-
Only a deeply damaged soul
would have danced with the devil.
The words that slipped through his tongue
like venom that seeped into your body
And cracked your bones.
He broke all of you.
“I did it because i love you.”
“This is your fault.”
Replays in your head like a broken record.
He told you so many times,
You told yourself the same thing.
How could you be such a
When he told you
that heaven was
he looked you in the eyes
when he was between your thighs,
you felt as though
But, his vision of heaven
is a different thing you see.
Because when he touched you,
HELL was the only thing your symphony was singing
How could you possibly believe
that heaven is when
hell beats you until your numb.
To the point you cannot feel.
To scared to move.
Yet not knowing if you even could.
It hurt to breathe.
As if your bruised ribs are too small for your lungs,
and your tiny tiny heart
is not tiny enough
your organs felt foreign
How could your heaven possibly be him?
you simply cannot forgive someone
Who caused you so such pain-
The torment you feel is eternal so
You pray to God with a soundless voice
Too afraid to say these words out loud...
Behind the closed doors
When the script flips-
And the you’s turn into me’s
What am I to do?
Until the blood I see is more than my own;
To the point where I can paint the heaven over his hell.
Now I will blind him with my resistance.
He tried to kill me,
burry me deep into the ground.
That I am a seed, and I will grow.