A 10 Letter Name.
Her grip was like claws around my throat
dragging me down
making me ebb away into the distance.
She sat on my pillow every night and asked me
what she was doing there
why she had always been there.
Growing up with her was as if I was swimming through concrete just trying to survive.
I started to see her in everything.
From my third grade best friend to my favorite television show.
It was like finding a body of someone you forgot you tried to kill.
And I still count the days I thought I would get over her.
I thought she would move out like a bad ex-boyfriend
but she still kept herself in my contact list.
Always there.
Never moving.
She started to become only a 10 letter name when I met you
Looking back at childhood I didn't know I had the choice to fix a problem like you
with only one swallow.
And I remeber all the times I wrote with silver and still got red over her
but now
I am better
Now,
I.
am.
free.