10 minutes poem

Here I am waking up feeling sad. inspired by someone but I'm not glad. reminiscing the past can't move on, my bad. listening to sad songs, keep dreaming about my lad. nostalgic when I wake up. keep dreaming even I mess up. fighting till I give up. loving someone who can't love me back. keep thinking of her till the end of the clock. happiness is not in my dictionary, yeah it suck. I can't do anything. my faith I can't control, I hear my heart screaming. screaming in pain because of insecurity, asking myself why I can't stop hoping? heartbreaks heartaches it keeps looping. lost in the code of interest even you're not a programming. rhyme in my verses cause you're the one that I’m lusting. it hurts thinking of someone who doesn't even know you're presence. is this the ache of growing up or what they called adolescence? you're smile I can compare in the crescents. it was so ravishing even the stars have been absence. you were the one that I want to gain. you were my favorite pain. the pain that could make me feel again. I’m typing this poem even my versatility is lame. I’m jealous of the rain cause it could feel your skin. I’m insecure to air cause it can hear you breathin. I’m sad cause i'm not the one you've been thinkin. I want you to be mine cause you're my everything. let's end this poem with a smile. I wish this will be the start of my new fly. I promise I be brave soaring in the sky. even you're the person that I don't want to say goodbye.