10 Seconds

I have ten seconds of happiness

And I hope I don't spend it all in utter craziness.

 

I have nine seconds of being sane

And then it will all result in pain.

 

I have eight seconds till it fades away

Then I'll wish that I begged it to stay.

 

I have seven seconds to say goodbye

Then the misery will engulf me till I cry.

 

I have six seconds to say a prayer

And hope to be forgiven, because it's only fair.

 

I have five seconds to suck in my breath

And wish for a quick and painless death.

 

I have four seconds to remember everything

From love to hate, from give to take.

 

I have three seconds to widen my eyes

And stare at the ceiling in fake surprise.

 

I have two seconds to bite my lip once more

And listen to my heart beat like a knock at the door.

 

I have one second to open my mouth and scream

Then maybe I will awake from this horrid dream.

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