10/26/15

I guess this is the unspoken part about growing up

speaking less and doing more

things to make myself proud 

making myself the top priority and hoping others understand with no communication exchanged

attempting to balance the things worth being temporary or permanent

changing in ways I never imagined because when you’d asked me who I wanted to be when I grew up

I never answered by saying myself

I’ve been preparing all this time to aspire to be someone else

instead of a better self

if I could go back to the past me

I’d say:

“happiness should never be taken for granted and neither should you,

compromise with empathy but not the excuse of love”

I thought I stood on a solid ground

to stay safe

but it was the most volatile decision

I chose loyalty over what I knew deep down

and that was to always trust yourself

I’ve gotten really good of hiding what I was scared of

by showing you all the things I wasn’t afraid of

still searching for peace …

still searching for answers…

and still searching for me.