11 Days

11 days

I can't believe it

11 days and we are going to be the happiest couple for 6 months

I haven't been this happy in a long time

I sit thinking of something he might do for it

11 days

It felt like yesterday that he finally said those magic words to me

Will you be my girlfriend

We were in our uniforms standing the rain the week before Halloween

And I was slightly worried about what would happen if I actually said yes

What would have happened in the last 6 months if I said no

But now all I feel is complete happiness with him

He became my moon and stars

My first date and soon after my first kiss

Who am I kidding he was a lot of firsts for me

We had even talked about the possibility of getting married after highschool

Dear god I love him so much

But then those dreaded words came

I think we need to break up

I didn't know what to say

I felt empty the second those horrible words tumble out of his mouth

Why why did he have to say those words

I couldn't take it

He handed me the scissors to make the final cut

Quickly I shut down but acted as if nothing was wrong

Trying to find what I may have done wrong to cause this but I couldn't

My heart shattered as those 7 horrible words fell from his mouth

I knew something wrong that day but I really hoped that wasn't what it was

I don't know what to do

Do I shut down again

Try and act like nothings wrong

When the happiest thing I have ever had was so brutally ripped from my hands again

I felt oh so numb

172 days with him

4 official dates

Thousands of kisses and I love yous

Suddenly all of a sudden seem so worthless as it all goes down the drain

We were everyone's couple goals

Playing like best friends

Protecting like brother and sister

Loving like husband and wife

What happened did it not earn anything it him

I still see him when I dream

Hes who I want to tell good news to first

Is he not as messed up as me

I lie awake at night crying cause

Dear god I miss him so much

Hes not the same person since we broke up

The light is gone from his eyes

He smiles and acts okay but ive seen his vulnerable side hes faking just like me

11 days

11 damn day