11 Days
11 days
I can't believe it
11 days and we are going to be the happiest couple for 6 months
I haven't been this happy in a long time
I sit thinking of something he might do for it
11 days
It felt like yesterday that he finally said those magic words to me
Will you be my girlfriend
We were in our uniforms standing the rain the week before Halloween
And I was slightly worried about what would happen if I actually said yes
What would have happened in the last 6 months if I said no
But now all I feel is complete happiness with him
He became my moon and stars
My first date and soon after my first kiss
Who am I kidding he was a lot of firsts for me
We had even talked about the possibility of getting married after highschool
Dear god I love him so much
But then those dreaded words came
I think we need to break up
I didn't know what to say
I felt empty the second those horrible words tumble out of his mouth
Why why did he have to say those words
I couldn't take it
He handed me the scissors to make the final cut
Quickly I shut down but acted as if nothing was wrong
Trying to find what I may have done wrong to cause this but I couldn't
My heart shattered as those 7 horrible words fell from his mouth
I knew something wrong that day but I really hoped that wasn't what it was
I don't know what to do
Do I shut down again
Try and act like nothings wrong
When the happiest thing I have ever had was so brutally ripped from my hands again
I felt oh so numb
172 days with him
4 official dates
Thousands of kisses and I love yous
Suddenly all of a sudden seem so worthless as it all goes down the drain
We were everyone's couple goals
Playing like best friends
Protecting like brother and sister
Loving like husband and wife
What happened did it not earn anything it him
I still see him when I dream
Hes who I want to tell good news to first
Is he not as messed up as me
I lie awake at night crying cause
Dear god I miss him so much
Hes not the same person since we broke up
The light is gone from his eyes
He smiles and acts okay but ive seen his vulnerable side hes faking just like me
11 days
11 damn day