2 in one ( the other me)

You look at me and see one thing and not the other,two sides so different you could call it my evil brother. one sees the smiles the proper way to talk, the other is vulgar and was taught how to stay hard as a rock. the shell of my good self begins to crack so i blow up and go on full attack. do you see me for who I am today? catch me on the wrong side of town where im down to play,the bad types music the other side of me,i wana be my raw self but for you I auto-tune it. I want to go to collage but i got no money and at the same time the other me wants to get muddy . If i get the little bit of help i need one day my sisters i will feed if i cant its the day the other me will rant .i got 2 in one and I want to choose the bright road full of houses and children not the one that makes me and my special needs sisters in a rickety old building