The 360 Degree Turn

I love I wish I could be happy I wish I could be like the old me Where I didn’t care about boys I don’t know how I changes I just did I wish I could always be happy I miss my old self When I looking in the mirror confused I don’t recognize this stranger in front of me Seeing the similarities to someone I know Not knowing who she is Similar outer looks to me But this person is not who I am I don’t lie, steal, or cheat What have I become Living in this lie Wanting to be different Wanting to be the old me The sweet caring person I used to be Silently me crying, screaming for help want to change Not able to show my feelings Frightened, no were to go No were to escape No one caring why I am who I am Everyone teasing me Making fun of how I look No one cares for my feelings Getting screamed at day and night Not knowing what to do wanting to change No were escape to, from the voices All around me none stop No one to talk to Giving signal no one notices The way I am Feeling frighten all the time Having to be perfect No way to show what is happening Wanting to speak Not knowing who to trust Wanting to be help Loving the wrong things and failing in life Wishing for the best Holding on to everything that feels good Trying to hide everything Acting peaceful Helping others over everything Wanting to be love Seeing things different Knowing the truth of this world Wanting to change the truth Not knowing if it’s good or bad Wanting to forget the past Seeing the change Never being the same for the rest of my life Looking back remembering cry in pain Wanting to blind once again not knowing the pain Knowing that the truth of this world hurts I always love I wish I could always be happy Changing every day Little by little Day by day Wanting to be the old exciting girl Not caring for anything around her