4AM Thoughts.

My mind is at a loss for words. Is it better to feel everything? Is it better to feel nothing? Some nights I slowly drift through the universe, Feeling so much that my chest tightens. My body loses control and I lie there. Melancholy running through my veins. Other nights I slowly drift through the universe, But I feel nothing, nothing at all. Just a numbing sensation and a hole in my heart. Just blood running through my veins now. What are these feelings? Are they good...or bad? Am I human...or an emotionless creature? All I know is that it is heavy. It weighs me down. Either way, I end up awake long into the night.