7:11:59 pm

by Anomous

November 5, 2024

Why can’t I be normal? I’m just a weird girl,

my soft black skin and my tight- coiled curls

I use to be so happy my smile lit up the room,

now I cope with drugs hoping I’ll be gone soon

Little kids playing on the swingsets I remember those days,

now I just want to be alone surrounding myself with waves

RAW Rolling papers I got from the convenience shops,

Going 79 in a 40 in my Mustang getting pulled over by the cops

Tickets after tickets causing my parents to be angry,

I could’ve almost died but honestly it didn’t scare me.

“Your brother looks up to you be a fucking role model”

but my life is shit I drink as I take it out on the bottle

Depressed and sad you can’t live this forever,

I keep my thoughts in I’m not really getting better

$18 dollars an hour, how can that pay for my bills?

If I worked my ass off I could do it I got the skills

I hate agrueing it just made no sense,

but Mama has to get the last word in causing mixed emotions and tense

I love my family they will forever have my heart.

But they yap so much I often look up to weed as an art.

Stressed over everything trying to figure it out,

you’d take advantage of me crumbling concrete like a drought.

But I have to focus on me I hate the feeling like this welp,

am I overreacting or do I really just need help?

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Comments (2)

AnomousNov 6, 2024

Hi! Sorry Im just seeing this but it isnt creepy at all.. I cried when reading your message you are so sweet! Thank you so much for the words of encouragement I really need it :)I keep everything in and cope very weird with things and so Ive been doing poetry and have been taking poetry classes. (Im new to this as well) It is okay to feel. I was scared of feeling like that but at the end I accept it and I can face it. I really hope your poetry journey is beautiful and takes you well! If you need feel free to reach out! Thank you so much again and I okay thank you I needed words of affirmation.

Adventure_catNov 5, 2024

<3Hello . . . sorry if this is creepy, but I love your poem. By reading your words, and seeing you express yourself it's almost as if I'm expressing myself. Hence the reason I've recently gotten into poetry. I'm sorry if I seem to benefiting by your misery, nontheless I feel proud of you, proud that you are expressing your feelings.It's sometimes better to scream and shout, because that way, at least you yourself are validating your feelings, making yourself remember you exist, you are alive, and you are capable of feeling. Personally thats how I am, if I don't allow myself to feel, if I don't allow myself to validate my own feelings, then I begin to seemingly drown in helpessness. And so in the end, what I am trying to say, is it's okay to feel.