Abnormal Activity In My Brain

The darkness consumes me

I lay in bed, not a desire in the world

Happiness there is no guarantee.

Life feels like it is whirled

Tears constantly fall

Sleep is either a constant in life

Or it is non-existent

What happens in the afterlife?

I feel so distant.

This darkness started mainly,

A year ago.

A year ago,

I lost her, so unexpectedly

“I love you, I’ll see you tomorrow”

I said.

Little did I know,

As I wake up that morning,

She is entering eternal sleep.

Why did you take her life?

All I can imagine is the 4 wheels screeching

It hurts so bad like a knife,

A knife stabbed into my heart

My cousin, my sister,

I miss you.

That loss has caused me to let go of the hand,

And fall deep down into a dark hole

But not into a fancy world like Alice in Wonderland

It’s a deep, dark and I just seem to lose control.