'accident'

they tell you that processing the ‘accident’ will help

what they don't tell you is how many times it will take

or how it ‘helps’

they tell you that processing takes away the pain

they tell you that things will get better and you won't have to carry a weight

they tell you to stop thinking about it

it'll pass

get over yourself

don't let it get to you

that by you holding that ‘accident’ its hold you back

don't let the ‘accident’ prevent you from doing what you want cause apparently that's letting him win

but he won the second he put his hands on a 8 year old

he won when i did not say anything

he won when he did it again at 11

he won when i was to immature and a child to do anything

he won when it got swept under a rug

and he won when he got a family

a son

whereas i got fear and anxiety and more gynecologist appointments than a 16 year old should ever have.