Addiction

One fish, two fish, red fish, blue fish If only the learning process was as simple as it used to be Then people would see what addiction took from me. Black and white mixed together is grey Should I kill myself? If only I could make a judgement call Then people would see what addiction took from me. I lost my family, my children, myself Pushed those who I love away Tried to protect them by harming myself If only they listen Then people would see what addiction took from me. I prayed as I shot myself some more I hoped it would make me stronger Deep into the darkness If only I knew Then people would see what addiction took from me. I cannot sleep in peace Everything is a reminder of my death I know my time is shorter Yet I do not drop the bottle If only God would pray for me Then people would see what addiction took from me Then people would see what addiction took from me.