Addictive Drugs Are a Pain

Die Go away and say goodbye Leave this life Of pain and strife Feel the noose tighten around my neck Feel myself swing lifelessly from the balcony The snap of my neck as I die Jump into the freezing lake Drown in the wake of hypothermia Die from being run over by a car Ride my bike out into the middle of the street Just stand there until I meet my demise Close my eyes and never wake up Go to heaven and sing with god and the angels I would be at peace finally I wouldn't be able to cause any more damage to the family I have No more stress for them No more yelling Or dying inside from frustration If I died it would be better Better for everyone if I meet my demise Now I see it’s just a result of a drug I was prescribed I was probably 5 Taken it for at least 10 year or more I have ADHD which it treats It is a highly addictive drug It is categorized in drug category 2 I wanted to release myself from it To stop my meds I am older and should be able to control it But I realize I can’t I am spinning out of control I now know I am suffering from withdraw Caused by coming off the drug after so long Common side effects but very costly I am now experiencing depression I have to make a decision Of death or life each day Never had that problem before Fatigue Tiredness Hopelessness I am motivation less Losing weight At an alarming rate When does it stop? When I am dead and gone When the summer sun has set to golden brown Addictive drugs are a pain