ADHD

Sleeping at night takes extra concentration for me

I don't have insomnia,

theres

no depression or anxiety that won't let me sleep

Instead i have music constantly playing in my head,

Only one little park because

I can't remember the words

What are those words

Oh my god i can't remember why can't i remember

Fine i'll look it up

And now i'm on my phone

And it's been 20 minutes

why can't i sleep

I'm exhausted what the hell

Ill turn on my music

Ohi know this song

I know all the lyrics let's sing along

It's been 10 minutes

I still can't sleep

Why can't i sleep im exhausted

I have to turn on white noise

But not the ones that change around

No just the fan because that stays the same

It takes blasting white noise and meditation

I have to make my mind blank

No black

No blank

No black its black

Now imagine all the colors fading away to black

Isn't me thinking about mediating defeating the purpose of meditating

Oh right black no blank its blank

It's been half an hour

I still can't sleep

i still can't sleep

i just want to sleep

I can't stop moving my foot won't stay still

Its rustling the blankets

The blankets a keeping me awake that noise is really weird

Why is it a different tone then from over here

oh right there's a pillow there

Why can't i sleep why can't i sleep

I have to get up tomorrow

Why can't i sleep

I have math class at 7

Why can't i sleep

I have school all day

Why can't i sleep

But does it really even matter

Why can't i sleep

I won't be able to pay attention