Adore You

Caroline

I think of you often

Not as a lover but as a friend

I write with the male inside of me

A sheer reflection of what I wish I could be to you

Perhaps in some ways, friendships are meant to end

Some ships are meant to sink rather than sail

I see the damage you etched into the seams of our realities

I drown in abhorrent seas of displeasure

Your eyes a conniving river of cruelty

You smile as we sink

Trepidation bellowing from my lips

I cannot say this was all in vain

I believe there was some truth to your words

Whatever glue held them stuck enough to convince me

To place blame upon myself

You

A master of games 

I wilted no matter how much I tried

What is meant to die withers before it disintegrates 

Eventually, it becomes a burning wisp of a former flame

A flame we once held for one another

Gone, like it never existed

Goodbye