To Afraid to Tell You

To Afraid to Tell You

By: Lena Lee

Inspired by: Myself and loving Friends that support me

When I first saw you it made me feel different,

Its been a year now and you are once again in my class but now closer than ever,

 I see you in the halls but do you see me? Do I exist to you at all?

No, I probably don't right. Its because I am FAT and have natural curls in my hair right?

At times I want to come up to you and have the courage to tell you that I like you.

But, when I do have courage I do plan to come tell you but then again "I BACK DOWN."

On the last day of eighth grade I wanted to come to you and tell you that I like you very much but I was too AFRAID so I  walked away not telling you.

I know that I am a COWARD, but I DON'T have the COURAGE to tell you.

Now we are Freshmen in High School,

I again had some classes with you. But you don't even recognize me or NOTICE ME AT ALL.

Now that you changed your schedule we no longer have any classes together. I was glad but also sad.

But I have learn to know myself, and I now know that I DO NOT NEED YOU.

I still wonder though did I exist to you?

I still remembered what you and your friend talked about,

Friend: "Hey dude you should ask  that girl out she is beautiful."

Him: " Her.... (laughs)... she is FAT."

As I herd him say that it broke my heart.

I knew he was talking about me because I was the only girl sitting at the same group with them. and all the other girls he called weird or ugly.

But now I have moved on and I DON'T NEED HIM AT ALL, I AM BEAUTIFUL JUST THE WAY I AM NOW.

I LOVE MYSELF JUST THE WAY I AM NOW, I DO NOT NEED A GUY IN MY LIFE!