After a Long Wait

My cattle had gone grazing on the pasture of distant colours. When will they return to bless me with their milky grace, unawares of their freedom? I know they will one day, on a sunny day, perhaps, come back in the chains of intense love moving their heads in unison sideways, no rope to tie their necks and waving their ears. They have no master, no, I am not; I cannot be, once though I was. but, when I think of my ways to them, my nature, idiotic sympathy, churning mood of empathy, heart felt intimacy, joy of inimitable loudness, their touch, i am adored, honoured and live! yet, there is a shadow, walking beside them, a real being, as clear as a sun, not with light though we may take it so, but with burning flame! fright is my companion, real is my enemy, doubtful my forward, burnt their farm, spilled their milk, beaten my life, tortured my destiny, churned my mind no chance to see them again, we are guilty of birth of life, love, spreading light and virus of virtue.