again

five months ago i got better

three months ago i decided that i was strong enough

so i listende to sad songs ONLY because i could relate

and wrote sad poems, i needed an outlet

and i started skipping meal, it wasn't dangerous

i was okay

i blamed the whole thing on the winter

the sky was grey so i was grey

the only thing wrong with that theory?

it wasn't winter

a month ago the monster i had squished into the back of my mind

and told myself i tamed

slithered into my consiousness and slowly drained my emotions away

today it hit me i'm going throug this whole thing

again