Alive

You whispered in my ear

"I love you Han"

I melted a little

He never called me Han

He only called me Bitch

I fell in love with you right then and there

You made me feel so safe

I was finally home

Home

Home

Home

I never knew you could be homesick 

for a person

until I met you

thank you

for loving

a girl so broken

yet so healed

because of you

I can walk into a resturant 

and order 

what I'd like

because of you 

I sing in the shower again

because of you

I can write again

because of you-

I'm alive

if you didn't talk me outta swallowing those 

pills

I wouldn't be writing this trashy poem

but you made me see

I am worth it

I'm not a waste of space

I'm free

from him

from bruises

from lies

I'm free 

because you loved me

thank you

for making me realize 

its okay for me to be here