All Because I Loved You...

Although it's been two years, my mind still starts to wander You occupy my thoughts, and I still always ponder About how different my life would be if back then I had knew The repercussions I would face because I love you From the beginning it was real, or so you made me think But at night just to forget the things you’d do all I did was drink I was fifteen and so naive, both these things you knew You made me think you really meant it when you said “I love you” In just three months these words turned sour, there were lies at every turn Your strikes were just “corrections” because you wanted me to learn I now realize that I didn't deserve all the things you put me through But at fifteen I chose to stay because I loved you. Along with bad times came the good that made the bruises fade You my best and greatest friend or at least that’s what you portrayed You always had a reason, most times a shitty excuse You’d say, “I want the best for you and I, so stop calling it abuse. You can't hang out with friends because I want you to be all mine I only yell to correct your wrong doings, so don't you start to whine. You should know that I love you, I give you anything you want You’re my girlfriend so that means that you are mine to flaunt I give you consequences because I really love you If it means that you’ll behave for me, disciplining is what I’ll do” I never had the strength to leave because for some reason I thought I needed to remain loyal and all else was treason To this day I still don't know what I feel for you I’m afraid to ask but did you even love me too? No you didn’t because what you did to me you don't do to one’s you love But none of this mattered to you when push came to shove Although it's been two years, my mind still starts to ponder But it's getting better everyday and I’m getting stronger Even after everything you’ve done to me, I can honestly say I’m grateful that I met you, you’ve made me who I am today You taught me that I don't need anyone to have high self esteem And that my partner should make me feel like I’m living in a dream You taught me that relationships have their ups and downs But nobody or anything should ever take my crown You taught me what true love is and that I won’t forget You taught me what it really takes to build a strong mindset You’ve shown me what my standards should be and not to lower them Especially for any man, even if it’s because I love him I can promise you that I’ll never make that mistake again I can bring myself up on dark days without the help of any men And even If I should find that special someone soon I’ll make sure he treats me right and true and is nothing like you He’ll be honest and respectful and make me smile bright And never put his hands on me, even in a fight He’ll be loyal and understanding, the things you’ll never be He’ll go the extra mile just because he loves me One day he’ll pop the question, making a forever promise between us two And when I ask him why he’ll say, “Because I Love You”