All I've Ever Wanted

How could I live without it?

All I've ever wanted was to be insulted

To be reminded every day that I will never be first chair

That I am smart but not Harvard Smart

That I'm beautiful but not enough to be on Vogue 

I wake up in the morning 

Only to look into the mirror

That shows me all of the flaws I can't wait to acknowledge 

My big nose that makes me feel like a second cousin to an elephant 

My muffin top that could make Cake Boss jealous 

My thighs that are big enough to support a family of five

All of these things I can't even imagine going into the world without

Never would I even imagine living without not being considered equal 

I love not getting a job because of the color of my skin

And even when I do, my dollar actually equals 77 cents not $1

I've only ever wanted to be treated like a piece of meat 

Rather than a human being that feels uncomfortable

Because why on Earth would I want to be loved?

Why would I want an equal chance at life like everyone else?

I can live without being considered beautiful

I can live with being whistled at to fuel someone's ego

At the end of the day

Why would I want to enjoy my life when I can't live with negativity?

Why can't others see the flaw in my desires?