all the things I never said

everyday, I try to honor you and be the young lady you always knew I could be

everyday, I think of the things that were left unspoken, your soul was gone before anyone realized

everyday, I wonder if you felt it. did you know that God would call you home? were you lonely? were you in pain?

this is for you, I'll try to write every word

just to simply say I miss you isn't enough

it's much more complicated than that

you were there, on my side through all the lies and hatred

you were the only one that didn't hate me for being different

everyday, I felt the hate

every family reunion, every family dinner, every Christmas

I knew they hated me 

but around you, I was always accepted

always loved

always hugged, by you

you didn't have a hateful bone in your body

you are the pure definition of a Godly woman

you taught me so many things about being lady like

you taught me that even though people have hate in their hearts, you still love them

I never understood, I would always get mad

I was so quick to anger

until, you taught me the defiition of love

you taught me to always be kind

you would say you never know what type of life they've had

you told me to always be the light

you showed me how to walk in the Light

because if I'm with God I will never be alone.

I now know that you weren't alone, I often forget that you couldn't have been lonely.

because, you always walked with God.

Hand in hand.

I love you Auntie Mamie