Almost

I open the dictionary Look for words That can convey What I really want to say They sit me down on a table Sea green Parchment paper Like I'm a cookie Ready to be baked I look down at my hands They tell me it's okay That no answer is wrong It's just that my test results are concerning And they want to know What's going on I tell them I don't know That not much is going on I don't tell them I feel like I have drowned They look at me with kind eyes Beautiful eyes that can't see through All the darkness I am walking through They click their pen "All done!" they say, "That's it, you're through!" I tell them to have a good day And I go on my way I leave with a heavy heart Another year I have to coast Because I couldn't find the words To say that I- But I almost did Almost.