Almost love
I sat out of Rite -Aid and cried my eyeballs out .
I never wanted this.
I never wanted you to put one finger on me
let alone , this.
I told you I wasn't ready
for an intimate relationship
how could I possibly be ready
for a child?
Mind spinning,
breaths thinning,
you sinning,
creating a new beginning.
Evil grinning,
half assed pinning
as you enter the car again.
You hand me a box enitlted
Plan B.
You open the box for me and
place the pill in my hand.
Even though I was freaking out
I don't know if I should do this,
this small pill that could take away my child,
that could change me from
high school dropout to valedictorian,
heart racing,
brain pacing,
Morality of erasing,
A human life ?
Thoughts chasing
the decision facing
mentally tracing
what could be done to keep you?
Content replacing
fear, embracing
the unknown, interlacing
it with love, then erasing
you as a mistake...
You are not a mistake.
You are mine.
You are mine.
You are mine.
I will protect you.
You are mine.
He is getting impatient
I give him a side glance and he
puts the pill in my mouth
holds a bottle of water to my lips
as I drink.
WAIT
I'm am so sorry.
You were mine.