Alone

Alone I stand, when before it seem, I always had a helping hand. I tell myself I'm at fault, but what else could I do when that's all I was taught. Taught how people could just leave, whenever it is that they please. Then people and I begin to wonder why I shove, when it comes to the ones I love. And when I'm left all alone, I sit waiting by the phone, a simple ring could make me smile, but sadly I know I'd have to wait longer than awhile. My heart says "give up? NEVER" My head says "okay, whatever, So much for friends forever." I find it crazy how easy it was for you to let go, thought we were like sisters but no. Still I'll never treat you as a foe. I'll just wonder why I feel so low. I figured our friendship was going to grow, as I look now there's nothing to show. I used to wonder why I shove every person I grow to love. My answer is cause everything will end in pain, so I find it easier to not tr and gain cause in the end you will always lose for I know there's a lot of people like you. but I guess learning the hard way is best that each one would be like the rest. Every person I grow to love needs to learn how to be shoved for when I needed them most I held such high hopes that everyone isn't like each other but truly cares for one another. Though you wont be the last one oh no.. I am always left with none. For that I shove every single person I love.