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I stand in the shower washing my face, Trying to wash away the pain, the worry, the anger, the stress Trying to cleanse my spirit Trying to erase the sin I let the water fall over me Feeling its light kisses tickle my skin Breathing in People all around me are progressing, While I stand digressing Standing alone I got pregnant. That's just it, I got pregnant... I failed to be responsible To take that damn pill, to tell him to put that condom on Where did it lead? To a road full of struggle Where is he? Obviously, not with me Not working. It's not anyone's fault but my own, and that right there it is so hard to let go! Hard to find humility So, hard to stop crying and wishing, just wishing for a different outcome In everyone's eyes I am a failure, a total product of my town A total product of my race I hide it for so long out of shame, shame of becoming like them Those girls I stood and judged One of those I have become It is not funny when you walk in their same shoes It is not fun to stand alone in the rain.