Always Be There

Does it kill you, too, pretending not to know me?

Do you not want to acknowledge me

Or do I not want to acknowledge you?

We can go on denying it, but it will always be there.

I catch you staring at me today

When I look up, you look away

We can go on denying it, but it will always be there.

We laugh

Real laughing

Our hands touch, but neither of us pulls away

We can go on denying it, but it will always be there.

Sometimes you look at me and smile

I can’t help but to return my biggest, dorkiest smile

Sometimes, when we talk alone I just stop and grin

And you try not to smile

Do you see only me, too, when we grin like that?

I took care of you when you needed it

Do you remember today, the things you told me last night?

Seeing you upset kills me

Do you care about me, the way I care about you?

Today it was me who caught your eye and smiled

You laughed

And no one saw

But it was enough for us.

“Are you asking me for help?” I tease.

You smile and mumble

Of course I’ll help you.

Today it was me who asked for help

I bat my eyes

You try to hide your smile as you willingly oblige

We can go on denying it, but it will always be there.

Today we passed each other for the last time.

But this time, we held each other’s gaze

And everyone saw

We will go on denying it

But it will always be there.