always waiting

im waiting

waiting for happiness

waiting to not feel 

like

im

falling apart.

waiting for a happier day,

waiting for a day

where the sun shines on my face

and the radiance of it

makes me smile with my 

eyes

closed.

im waiting for

the day that I hold your hand

and it ignites me with fireworks

reminding me

how

in

love

I 

am

with

him.

but I'm sitting here

frozen

because I'm terrified 

of everyone leaving 

because that's all everyone seems to do.