Am I Just a ghost?

Words are like glass scraping across my lungs I’d try to talk but I swallowed my tongue Ya i would grow up but I think i'm too young And maybe I’m smart but I’d rather be dumb I might go to heaven but that's not where I’m from I sold my soul to the demons that offered me freedom And you know what they actually gave me some... But i think I sorta liked the cage they put me in At least then i knew where I fit in, Cause i'm sorta lost again Im looking for someone, dont know where to begin Cause there's a sea of faces, but i don't feel any hearts And I’ve looked in all sorts of places, Only to find a bunch of broken parts. Your looking right past me Tell me how come you don't see me No your staring right through me Its like you never knew me Am i really that empty Am i just a ghost? Just a spirit? Im choking on pain can't you hear it? My hands aren’t tied but they might as well be Becuase i conform to the rules of normalcy Can't remember the last time i didn't live life for somebody that wasn't me Nah i don't know why I hide my crazy When I should be fighting for the right to insanity. I've become just another fake smile And i tried to live like this, i've done it for a while I put on a good show, accepted every low blow Until i faded from view Now I’m invisible and i’m looking for truth Why the hell am i living my life based on you? Your looking right past me Tell me how come you don't see me No your staring right through me Its like you never knew me Am i really that empty Am i just a ghost? Just a spirit? Im choking on pain can't you hear it Cause now I’m so lost and I’m screaming at you But you turn a blind eye to my holocaust, as if I’m fucking see through Sad thing is , is that you always knew! You knew i needed outta my head, you knew that my prayer every night was that somehow i'd be dead And you knew that i needed you but you just walked away How could you leave me when you promised you’d stay? Don't try to come back, cause now it's too late I'm just a ghost now, I guess it's my fate I mean you never saw the real me anyway Funny how you only see me now that i've gone away Nah im not mad, no its okay I always knew I’d get you to see me someday... I just wished it hadn't been this way.