Am I rushing

Am I rushing? I remember the first time I got asked to marry someone And then the next Then the next And then the next I had been asked 4 or 5 times All had left me Making me think I was the problem Making me feel like I was in the wrong All came to me one by one Throw out the years Explaining why they left All apologizing Making me see I did nothing wrong The one I'm with now I don't want to loose I don't want to give him the opportunity to leave He asked me to marry him I said yes I made him choose the year, date, time. He choose a day I made him stick to it Not to much time to plan He says to change the day I refuse Am I rushing? Because I don't want to loose him? Because I don't want another failed engagement Am I rushing? Am I making him rush into a marriage he's not ready for? Am I rushing?