Breaking through the confines of my mind, back to reality,
It is apparent that I am still sitting in the back of this
Vehicle and the force that gave me back life has
Sprayed through the air and shattered through
The rear view mirror and distorts my image.
I find it fitting and climb into the front
Of the car and it’s suddenly soaring back to life.
I feel at peace with the heat that seems to emit from the seats.
Because it reminds me that even though you’re not here,
In this place you have so often deemed your home,
I can still feel safe. I feel like nothing can get to me
In this metal barrier that appears to deflect
Any light and bad memories that comes.
Before I can drive off into the stretched
Road and submerge myself into the sky
That was now bloodied and stained
In colors that enthralled me,
I think of our relationship and the times we spent alone.
Love is more than just looks and occasional whispers
It is not strengthened with jealousy and it is not
Weakened by concern and longing.
It is like a ivory canvas.
We must paint it together
And create our own perception of beauty
And then take it and handle it with care.
Lonely, I turn on the car radio and the tunes dance
And tip-toed and tapped on the ceiling
Billy Joel croons and hums against the wheel
And I inhale his words through my nose,
Let them play around in my head,
And when they've had their fun
They roll off my tongue and spill
Out of my mouth.
I wish you were here.
But I've spent too much time wishing things from you.
Because I finally see that you’re not the star I thought you were.
It was just me and Billy now.
You had your chance to be here, to allow me to love you.
And now, we have both destroyed ourselves.
And now it was just Billy