And Then She Falls Apart
She looked as though She had it all together.
She was always smiling
And she had good grades.;
But little did anyone know how much she was struggling.
Desperately trying to keep it all inside,
She lost herself along the way
trying to find hope
to find happiness
to find the girl she used to be
She tried to stand tall
instead, she would falter
She would fall...
Tried to stay strong
Left her feeling weaker
than before.
She tried to run
and found a place
where the line between family and friends was blurred.
A place where love
and hope
are the strongest forces there are
Where new life
grows
and long life
celebrates
Celebrated each day
as a promise
as a promise of something
Something new
Something free
Something priceless
As priceless as the memories
memories shared
memories made.
but even memories can't save her now
They surround her
Consume her
She falls harder
lower
And no one is there to pick her up
she wants to keep fighting
But she is tired.
She wants to keep it together
but she is tired.
She stops trying
She pushes away loved ones
She cuts her hair
She isolates herself from anything that used to bring her joy
because she has convinced her self that happiness is a sin
She wants to be loved but won't let anyone love her
she wants to be heard but she never speaks
She wants a shoulder to cry on but never sheds a tear
She wants to be found but makes herself invisible
Her silent cries pleading everyone to see her pain
Whilst hoping no one ever does.
Because she doesn't know if she can handle it
She wants desperately to tell someone,
but doesn't want to say a word
So she stays silent.
She lets her pain consume her until it becomes too much
it grows until it becomes so heavy she has to let go
of the last thread of hope.
Until it becomes so dark it extinguishes the last flame of happiness.
She lets it control her.
She no longer tries to save herself.
She no longer smiles.
She no longer has good grades.
She stops trying to hold it all together.
Because she thinks she doesn't deserve it.
And then eventually she gives up.
And then she falls apart.