this anger

im sick and tired of being like this

ive been selfish and i cant take it no more

im thinking about  the people i care about

so many depend on me

im trying to keep them in my thoughts always 

imagining if they were here with me

what I HAVE TO BE

for them i CANT sink any further 

why am i letting my life slip away 

its been too long this way

the anger has been building up

i usually block it away 

i dont know how much longer i can keep it this way

im starting to scream and talking to myself

i use to punch things when i couldnt handle my thoughts

people look at me like what the fuck?

the fact that my anxiety takes over

i try to keep composure 

but now i see its only getting worst

why do i feel so weak?! 

I can never get it right 

no  matter the years that i try to fight

tomorow  i'm going to wake up

and try to beat myself again

keeping the 1's in mind that i need to do this for!