Anonimity

I keep hiding.

Hiding myself, hiding the fact that I’m about to blow.

I keep lying.

Lying to myself, about what’s real and what isn't.

I can’t stay like this forever.

Eventually they’re all gonna find out.

All I’ve said, all I’ve sung.

All of it will be revealed.

I can’t let them know,

I can’t let them see.

I have to stay like this.

Not just for me,

I have to hide for them.

I can’t hold in the darkness much longer.

I have to keep it locked up.

It must be kept in check.

If not me, who else?

If the door gets opened, I might be lost forever.

So I have to keep it a secret.

I have to keep the fact that I’m insane hidden.

I have to keep the darkness hidden deep inside of me to never escape.

My only regret,

Is not being able to believe.

But if you trust me,

Know that I love you.

And ironically,

I have to keep that a secret from you too.