anonymous you
i wish i knew you
i wish i could play connect the dots with the constellations of freckles
that adorn your cheeks
like i used to
while you talked about your passion
and the future
and what you hoped to accomplish
i wish we could still talk for hours about the things you love
that i could care less about
save for the fact that you love them
i wish i could still hear the sound of pencil on paper when you would
draw me how you saw me
and how you hoped i could
maybe
one day
see myself
i wish i could still see the way
your whole demeanor changed when i told you
just how beautiful everything you drew was
and how wonderfully talented you were
and how humbly you accepted praise
i wish i could still feel your arms wrapping around me from behind
when you knew i needed reassurance that
i was doing okay
there was nothing to worry about
i wish i could still have the honor of hearing your laugh
when you would tease me about being your absent-minded professor
i wish i still had your shoulder
to rest my head on in the middle of a lecture
i wish i could still hold your hand
across the gaudy purple cafeteria table
i wish i would have someone to hide my blush from
when they compliment me
like i did from you
i wish i had the words to articulate
just how much you
meant to me
mean to me
more than you realized at the time
maybe you figured it out
from all the times you caught me looking at you from across the room
from the times when maybe i didn't hide my blush so well
from the times early on when making eye contact wasn't the easiest thing
i wish you would think of me
at least sometimes
like i think of you
i wish you still knew me