Another Bus Ride

Looking through pictures And poetry last night, Thinking about Jessica, Thinking about those ‘real’ relationships Those ones I’ve never had, It’s always been so one sided, Like I’ll never find someone, I don’t feel worth it, I’ve held in tears Because I’ve felt like I don’t deserve The comfort from those who care, I’m so much weaker than what I’d thought, So much dumber than what I’ve known, I’m as lonely as I’ll ever be, Because it will never be, You see, there is no ‘me’, I cannot feel, It’s always been surreal, Which is something of which I cannot deal