another love

Darling, the love you give me isnt the love that the wings of butterflies push against my stomache as i think of you

its not the love that fills my head up with the beautiful images of you

it is the love that suffocates the pit of my stomache when i tell myself to stay with you only because you tell me that no one will ever love me

it is the tear that rolls down my cheek as my head aches from the past argument we had the night before

it is the throbbing and the blue-otlined bruise i toch as i remeber you apologizing over and over again saying "i will never lay a hand on you again, i love you.

and that my darling in your head is love, a love i do not deserve, a love that no one deserves

i as a women deserve a love that keeps me up at night wondering how i got so lucky

a love that makes me feel as the moon and stars shine bright only for us

a love that wrapps me in warmth and security 

the love you have given me is another love

and my darling i deserve better.