Another one gone

Oops boy they said

 in dismay I Lay my head...

I seek comfort but seldom to it I am leed...

I try to keep up but I keep falling and the result is I bump my head...

But enough said of the past...

My arrogance was in the air I guess...

The messes I made more like steps to these finer days...

I finally made a difference...

I'm different not cus I strive or try to but just because the worlds blind...

To my commonalities I stick out more than a bright light in a dark room...

Hu to think we planned our future wedding

 but to think I was soon to not be married or a groom...

We laughed in the grass we layed in staring at the stars

 ur voice forever lingering in my heart...

I opened my heart my fatal mistake...

Would've given u my all if u gave me a call...

Would helped u up even catch u if I see u about to fall...

Those nights we spent u brushed them away to only my dismay...

My pain stems from the lack of love there, here in my heart...

I need to find something someone true that would fill it but where do I start...

I think for now I'll put it in park...

And lye lonely in my heart I lost another...

And on top of that she never got to see me depart...

But deep down in my heart I know she didn't like me how I liked her so in this I leave the matter be... 

As I drift out into my thought filled sea...

I pray upon God may the matter he take...

And I try to yet again @5drift away after upon poems my time I have spent...

Books filled about her yet she'll never know it...

The very thing I feared was the thing she is now showing...

It's all good not the first time I layed abandoned and lost...

So across this valley of dried up love and affection as well as pseudo love 

I'll carry my burden I'll carry my cross...

I just hope upon this journey again our paths do not cross...