Another Panic Attack

I’m having a panic attack, help.

My chest heaves, and I can’t quite breathe.

Help, please, I plead.

Silently I wait for my negative thoughts to disappear.

Their swirling, picking up pace.

All I can do is hold my phone close.

Please, please, answer your texts.

I know you’ve seen, so, please.

I’m having a panic attack, help.

I press send once again.

My thoughts have whirled into their own storm,

I don't want them to see.

Body shielded by a blanket,

Sobs muffled by a trembling fist.

Chaos and doubts broke down my inner peace.

I’m having a panic attack, help.

Every sudden noise sends my heart racing.

My parents are fighting,

I might never see my mom again,

It was all because of me.

I am tempted to send the text.

Knowledge of her own problems stop me,

Clicking delete as my thoughts reach their darkest point.

I’m having a panic attack, help.

I shut off the phone and clench my eyes shut.

They were right, no one cared.

If I were to simply disappear,

No one would shed a tear.

I am alone and no one cares.

Not my best friend,

Not my brother,

Not even my mother.

When the trembling stops, and tears dry,

I give a content sigh.

I survived.