An Apology and Explanation

I'm so sorry.

Forgive me.

Forgive me.

Forgive me.

I just wanted 

To hide, I

find a new

reason every day.

I'm scared of

Growing up,

So I run,

This is how I run.

Are they reasons or excuses?

I can't tell. I just can't tell anymore.

It's worse for you

Than it is for me

I lie to you, I lie

I hide, I need to hide,

I'm scared,

I'm so scared,

I'm scared of sex,

I'm scared in general.

Please understand.

You don't even have to forgive.

Just understand.