Apology Letter To Myself

Dear Me,

I know what you went through, the obstacles you knocked down, the tears you dropped day after day you wonder why you were  feeling so scared, you wondered why you felt so alone inside. You grew up thinking beauty was all about long hair,

Curves,

being popular

You just wanted to fit in

You tried

You got laughed at

You got name called

You got mistreated

I allowed you to fill your lungs with toxic air

I allowed you to drink poison that changed your character into a person that’s not you.

But in your mind it was juice.

I’ve see a change in you, a change where people can't believe it’s really you.

So I’m here to say that I’m sorry, Wandaly I’m sorry for giving you the false thoughts on beauty, I’m sorry for making you feel unwanted. I’m sorry for making you become the person people want you to be.

You just wanted to be cool.

But instead you treated yourself as the fool.

You see the thing is, the moments I’ve put you through were for your own good, it was better that you cried, it was better that you were miserable. It was for the best, I’m going to tell you why. Take a look at yourself today. Are you crying porque alguien te llamó fea? Are you wondering what that cute guy thinks of you? Are you worrying that one of your closest friends is no longer your friend?

It’s pretty funny actually. I was so worried your insecurities were going to have you dead at one point.

But by the looks of it, the change I see in you seem to be great. So is this letter apology even worth it? You’re grown, you’re strong, you’re beautiful. You act tough just so people won't step on you

you're mean so people won't take advantage of you,

you're blunt because you don't care if the truth hurts. The only reason I should be sorry, is for not hurting you any sooner. You could’ve been tough back then as you are now.

This is an apology letter from me to myself, I’m sorry

-Sincerely Myself