Appear

It's been a while since i last wrote.
I calmly breathe my final breath..i've been holding it since you broke my heart.
Dealing with a pain that you thought never scarred was something..that cut deeply down to the core of my heart. I have looked to the left trying to find hope. nothing was left but a single shower of rain..so i decided maybe the right...maybe something there will turn back on the lights....it made me wonder as i sighed, slightly smiling running for the sky....but when i arrived...everything was gone. nothing but emptiness filled in the hole.......i dropped to my knees, crying because nothing's left. no matter how hard i think
about the feelings i feel..i can't seem to make out with this feeling may be...it's hard to explain but everything's blank, no matter where i run not matter how loud i scream and cry....Nobody seems to hear or see the pain deep within...i'm left alone. down here in this dark hole. Full of coldness and loneliness...nothing but confused mixed feelings....holding my body curled to a ball...crying and asking "Please someone help me...." but what is left when you look around you and nothing seems to never appear..?