Arcane

You wouldn't even notice

But if you look closely, you'll see

She's not who you think she would be

See there's this girl, and she changes over and over

She's the girl that would do absolutely anything and everything to please others

If something goes wrong, or not right in her eyes...

She's failed

If she's failed, she changes

She'll change her personality, perspective, point of view...EVERYTHING!

She has to please others before herself

Many people have rough pasts...she is one of those people

At the age of 6, her father dropped out of her life

She wasn't important to him anymore

At the age of 7, she was hurt...

HE touched her inappropriately

HE looked at her body

HE pictured doing things to her

She didn't want it, she was so young

This went on and on for about 3 years

To this day she still questions: Why?

Why did it happen? Why me, why anyone?

A secret that will remain hidden for 10 years

She remained quiet throughout elementary school

In the 7th grade, at the age of 12 she was exposed to alot of things

Sex, lies, rumors, backstabbing

She crumbled a little bit more each day

High school...it got worse

She shut down and barely talked

She wasn't popular or pretty or important

She had 3 friends

Targeted for a burglary

Shutting herself off from the world

Developing mental problems

She was put into therapy...it got a tiny bit better

Therapy was her release

Who knew?! She turned out to be a talker

Then a big change happened...moving to a different state

It was sad to leave her friends and therapy but Yes! An escape!

She's gotten a lot better

She has anxiety, fears, depression, and possibly bipolar disorder

She accepts them and so do the people around her

She has had a struggle with self harm, but has help

Amazing support, and opportunities

Making monumental steps, life-changing decisions

She learns more and more everyday

Happy and content with life

Some nights are rough, but she gets through

Exploring her curiosities, trying new things

She makes her life work

But how do I know, right?

Well, she is me..I am her

I live with anxiety, and depression

And all of the decisions I've made in life

Sometimes I get knocked down and scared...

But I do get up and am more than ready to keep moving forward

I am motivated

I am beautiful

I have struggles but am not alone

I can do it

Ditched by a parent, sexually abused by a family member, almost being kidnapped,

shutting down, self-esteem issues, social anxiety, fears, general anxiety, depression,

bipolar disorder, self harm, suicidal thoughts

I am who I am

I am not my past, my past has shaped me into who I am

Let the future begin