The Art of Losing It All

Sacrifice hurts so much,

And my doubt is now a crutch,

Holding me back,

I'm failing fast,

Can this really last?

I know the world is watching every time I fall,

They want to learn the art of losing it all.

Why does the scars of the past never seem to fade,

Will there ever come a day where I may feel okay?

The sins are all counted yet God still forgave,

There has to be a reason for a monster like me to be saved.

Or maybe I am blind to the vultures circling around,

I said I'd never bow while I am chained onto the ground.

I scream and scream yet no one in this world hears a sound,

I watch my fear and my doubt beginning to surround.

In the midst of pain I tried to stand tall,

This is the art of losing it all.

The past creeps back so slow,

And I just want to let this world know,

Falling apart,

I'm looking for my heart,

Can I really be able to restart?

I know that the peace comes right before the fall,

Maybe that is how I learned the art of losing it all.

When will I find someone who hold me high,

Instead of building my life out of lies?

I honestly don't even see my crime,

Yet still the judge comes and I am tried. 

So now I think that I am too sinful to have You,

There's no way You can still stand after all we've been through.

You helped me through these lies and I found the truth,

And this is glorify the Man who paid my dues.

The darkness comes and I begin to crawl,

But I don't have to die because You showed me the art of giving it all.

Sacrifice saves people like me,

The ones who find it so difficult to believe,

Losing faith,

I know I have grace,

Can You bring me to Your embrace?

I understand that it hurts when we fall,

But we God practiced the art of giving it all.

And we are saved.