Ashamed
I feel shame
of this thing you call a game.
I am ashamed
of the scars on my wrist,
the urge to create new ones,
all the lies I've told,
all the lack of truest I have.
I am ashamed
of the all the mean things said
and things I left unsaid.
I am ashamed
of my pain.
Why can't it go away?
Why can't I tell anyone how bad it is?
Because they think its a game.
My pain is nothing but a game to them.
They think I'm melodramatic
or striving for attention.
But I know it for what it is
Pain
Depression
My life doesn't have a claim.
It could end at any second
and sometimes I wish I would.
I am ashamed
of this thing they call a game
of what I call pain.