Attacked

I’ve been broken down and restored Set back Been attacked since the day I was conceived inside my mother’s womb Attacked by gallons of liquor bottles, Making me kick within my mother’s belly, Choked by my birth father before I was born Because the child that I was, I was inside of her So I felt what she went through As the telephone wrapped around her neck it wrapped around mines, Pushed out of the window Blood her blood Attacked Almost killed but not dead yet because she landed on her back and not her belly, She laid there, My unborn body wanting to help her, I felt the same pain as she did, Mommy are you ok? She can’t hear me because I’m not born yet Still within my mommy laying in the hospital bed thinking the same thoughts as she thought, Mommy you were attacked tell somebody don’t hide a damaged spine, You didn’t trip out of a two story window, I could have died mommy I’m not an infant yet but I’m being attacked like I’m born already That amazing prayer I said within the womb made me become stronger, I came out being sexually abused as an infant by my own blood What?? Oh yes there’s more attacked over one hundred times I stopped counting, Attack, Attack me? Why I lord? Why me Why? But the whole entire time I had faith, Always prayed pictured another day I prayed God I believe in you, Just help me stay strong, Tried attacking myself But the lord didn’t let me Because, said he loved me each time I tried to slice my wrist, He would tell me how much I meant to him that he loved me And that’s all I needed to hear was those words “Angel I love you, I’m always listening to your cries…. God always listened to me!!!!!!! And was there when I needed him, Attacked even more after that but loved through it all He implanted this dove inside my heart To help me fly out of those attacks regardless of what happen to me Jesus it hurts, it burns, it bleeds, and it drains away my skin covered heart But you’re inside my heart To help me get through these attacks How am I still breathing just let me go Let me go, let me go God I pray that you help me please Shattering like glass is not a good feeling and I felt that way man Step by step my speed began increase faster and faster I ran I almost got to the main street, But he got me, I couldn’t scream, trying not to look at his face Look at me!!!!!!!! Look at me!!!! I just stared into the sky praying God please help me help me… Please... How am I still alive and healthy from those? Attacks Wouldn’t have happened if I wasn’t sent to the store at 12am Some people are sick Father please forgive him for he does not know what he has done. Ran and cried with almost bloody eyes, But tears were gone before I entered my home It burned it burned so badly I kept faith throughout them bloody tears all that pain But I didn’t give up…… That strength is what lets me stand today