Attempted Repetition of 8.21.13

I feel like affection is causing me to be dumb

I have no inhibitions when I'm drunk and drowning in love

So I send dumb e-mails and letters, squawk, and cling to people

I tell people in poetics and purple prose how much their essence means

And though I feel it still falls flat, the nagging voice tells me I've already scared them enough

I worry I scare people away

But I feel in my recent time missing in action from life, that I need to say before it's too late

And I know it hasn't been that long

But in that time I felt so alone that I feel I oughtn't allow it ever again

There are those I would want to spill my soul into

But it must be consensual and I fear it mightn't be reciprocated

My love without reflecting, O do not be rejecting-

And I don't know how to behave or function as a well adjusted human anymore

I'm only soul and emotion inhabiting a body electric that wants to hug my beloveds close

I am melodrama and love uninhabited now a days and I feel it repels those I wish to attract

It's all too easy to say I'm misunderstood

The reality of it is, being so stifled caused me to be like this the second I'm uninhibited

I know I ought to tone it down, but not until I've expressed it all

Loved properly those who will allow me to do so

For I adore them more than I ever thought humanly possible

And knowing how I was even before all this, that says quite a bit

But if I can reach that pinnacle met before hand, or even anywhere close

My quest for glorious, hippy, uninhibited love will be fulfilled

And I might go back to a more affectionate version of my former self

I don't know if there's such a thing as loving too strongly

But I feel whatever I'm doing must be close to that edge

If it even exists in the first place

But as with everything in my set of interests, I want to hurdle over

I know it probably isn't the smartest thing to do

But really not many of the things I aspire to do are, are they?

I suppose it's dumb to think August Twenty-First could be repeated

Miracles cannot be repeated

At least not unless all parties are present in the moment