An Author's Monologue

Cheers to a new chapter of a poorly written book Where the author's raw emotion was often overlooked Where she agonized with words and trailed off in thought Where she timidly ran her fingers through her hair and would pout Where the sound of her voice was what scared her the most Because the echo it demanded came not from the host And through all the trials she had come to face she feared people's judgment and began to erase the moments that killed her and the times it took place the moments tears ran down her pretty little face she didn't want to feel weak; not anymore she thought she could outgrow this - she was no longer four she was no longer poor, malnourished but more And the potential in her spoke in volumes; she was the late blue bud before it blooms She was torn between throwing her old life away or continuing where she left off All the words she had previously written on paper were all scribbled out The anxiety rushed through her veins as her mind began to shout because all she ever wanted was to be heard about She wanted to be accepted for the good and the bad She wanted to be accepted for the happy and the sad She didn't feel the same all hours of the day And her book mirrored that image in every single way It dawned on her at that very moment That though the cover was bad and the binding was rigid every stitch she had made was what kept her book nicely fitted The book didn't lack quality, it lacked character Because it was the author who wash't being a good care taker She didn't take up the responsibility; that was her failure She didn't act on her potential; she was her own traitor - So boys and girls, listen here When it comes to your desires, don't react with fear To be heard and felt are things you'll never regret Your past is what made you, you but don't ever let your past dictate the stagnation in your life; that moving forward from where you are is the way Don't do what I did and erase everyday Your past makes you stronger; this is my insight to you You don't have to rewrite your past to make history anew.