Awakened

I smile to keep from crying Everyday I spend my hours trying To keep my self denying That I'm not afraid of dying To walk up to those pearly gates To walk the path that holds my faith To read the wrongs that have been written Standing there waiting for my sentence Looking back at all the mistakes I've made To all the mean tricks and games I played To the people I made shudder with fear My evil ways are apparently clear. I cry to keep from smiling I stopped spending my hours trying To live my life denying That I'm afraid of dying